The Elul Vacation
by Rabbi Pinchos Lipschutz
The great Chassidic master, the Mezeritcher
Maggid, taught that three principles in avodas Hashem can be learned
from a child. Children are happy without any special reason, they are never
idle, and they cry out when they want something.
Last week, I learned a fourth.
My children recently moved back to America
after living in Eretz Yisroel for several years. I was taking a walk
with my sweet little Yerushalayim-born-and-bred granddaughter. Her small hand
was clasped tightly in my own as we walked, when the sound of sirens was heard
in the distance, a call alerting volunteer firemen to a blaze. Perhaps because
the sound is not infrequent, and since I am not a fireman it is irrelevant to
me, the siren’s cry barely registered in my mind. My granddaughter, however,
panicked. I felt her tense up, squeezing my hand very tight.
“Zaidy, we have to run,” she said.
“Why do we have to run?” I wondered.
Tears filled her eyes and her voice quivered.
“Otherwise, Zaidy, rockets are going to fall on us!”
From my granddaughter, I learned what it means
to hear - to really hear.
When I heard her comment, said with such
simplicity and self-assurance, I understood the answer to a question posed by
the Chevroner rosh yeshiva.
The Tur (Hilchos Rosh Hashanah
581) states that Chazal instituted the custom of blowing the shofar
during the month of Elul so that people will be alerted to perform teshuvah,
as the posuk (Amos 3:6) states, “Im yitoka shofar be’ir ve’am
lo yecherodu? Can a shofar sound in a city and the nation will not tremble?”
This question demonstrates that the sound of the shofar causes people to
be fearful.
Rav Dovid Cohen, rosh yeshiva of
Yeshivas Chevron, points out that the posuk, which is widely repeated
and mentioned as the source of the custom to blow shofar, does not refer
at all to teshuvah or Rosh Hashanah. The posuk mentions
the shofar and its ability to evoke fear as a tool of war. When the shofar
sounds, people panic, because they know that war is imminent.
How, then, is this a source for the shofar
we sound during these days of Elul and Rosh Hashanah?
Rav Eliyohu Meir Bloch, the Telzer rosh
yeshiva, would begin each Elul by announcing to his talmidim
that “mir zennen yetzt in ah tzeit fun milchamah, we are now in a time
of war.”
Just as in a time of war leisurely pursuits are
scuttled, so too during Elul that same mindset and attitude must
pervade. Things that are acceptable throughout the year have no place now. The
sense of urgency and desperation spawned by war is the rule of this month.
There are no atheists in foxholes and there shouldn’t be any apathetic people
during Elul.
Those who are aware and cognizant of the season
are shaken to do teshuvah when they hear the sound of the shofar,
because they recognize it as a call to battle and are reminded that they have
to defeat the yeitzer hora. Since they are spiritually sensitive and
attuned to the realities of the season, they jump to attention when they hear
the sound, because they know it is relevant to them.
While the distant ring of the fire-bell in
Monsey didn’t call me, since I can’t put out fires and I am not conditioned to
respond to it, my granddaughter heard the siren - which she had sadly
come to know and take seriously - and she felt the urgency. She recognized what
it means, its implications, and its relevance, and she reacted.
Those in sync with the ratzon Hashem are
alert to the kol shofar. They are constantly engaged in the milchemes
hayeitzer that defines life for a human being. Thus, when they hear the
sound of the shofar, they tremble with the knowledge of “hinei yom
hadin.”
They recognize that sound from the last war,
from the last time they had to battle the yeitzer hora, from last year’s
yemei hadin.
The Sefer Akeidah (Shaar 97)
compares this month to the four seasons of the year. He says that the body
declines over the winter and comes back to life along with the rest of nature
during the spring and summer. When it is cold and snowy, the hibernation factor
kicks in and man is driven indoors, unwilling and unable to navigate the roads
of life amidst the cold and ice.
When spring and summer arrive, people awaken.
Their moods improve and they spend more time outdoors, exercising and engaging
in activities that increase physical pleasure. As the flowers and trees bloom
again and the weather warms, man’s physical strength and temptations increase.
Lehavdil, the Yomim
Noraim are for the neshomah what summer is for the guf, says
the Akeidah. It’s the time when our souls come alive. Elul is
spring, the month in which the neshomah begins preparing for the growth
of Tishrei. A sense of anticipation, optimism and hope pervade the air.
Much like a family will spend happy hours in the spring planning their summer
vacation, Jews map out their spiritual course during Elul for the coming
season of din.
The Alter of Slabodka once returned to his yeshiva
during Elul after having spent the previous weeks in a resort town
recouping his strength. The talmidim of the yeshiva, the
repository of future gedolim, ventured forth to greet their mentor. Upon
receiving them, the Alter delivered a short shmuess.
“We arrive from the physical vacation to a
spiritual vacation. We come from the summer months spent in forests and fields
and begin the months of the yemei haratzon, which we spend in the yeshiva.
What distinguishes this vacation from that one?” he asked. “Just as vacation is
necessary to fortify the body, so is vacation necessary to fortify the soul -
even more so, in fact, for everyone is considered sick and in need of a
vacation in regard to the neshomah. There is none so hale and hearty
that he doesn’t require this treatment…”
Apparently, the mussar giant was echoing
the teaching of the Sefer Akeidah. A person’s body requires
downtime, a time when it doesn’t feel pulled in every direction, thrust onto a
merry-go-round of pressure. The soul does as well. Elul is the time when
we disconnect from everything else to focus on pleasing the soul.
Elul is the
time when we can escape the year-round commotion and meet our spiritual needs. Elul
is, in essence, a resort of healing and therapy for the soul. This is why we
proclaim twice a day during this period, “Shivti beveis Hashem,”
expressing the hope that we will be strong enough to provide ourselves with
this essential break from year-round apathy.
Those who take their vacations seriously are constantly
on the lookout for exotic destinations, scenic locales and peaceful venues.
Spiritual seekers are no different. When the Chofetz Chaim passed away,
his talmid, Rav Elchonon Wasserman, who was accustomed to spending
Elul in Radin with his rebbi, set out to find a new milieu for Elul.
He settled on Kelm and its mussar master, Rav Doniel Movoshovitz. When
he returned home after spending a month there, he said that he had discovered “ah
vinkele fun erentzkeit, a small corner of sincerity.”
Sophisticated people invest effort and
resources to find the proper place for these all-important Elul days,
realizing that the success of the entire next year depends upon them.
Elul isn’t
merely a chance to catch our breath before the intense days of Tishrei.
The Me’iri (Chibur Hateshuvah 2) compares Elul to the idea
of “Dorshin hilchos haPesach kodem hachag shloshim yom,” the requirement
to study the laws of yom tov during the thirty days prior to its
arrival. So too, prior to the Yemei Hadin, we prepare ourselves during
the month-long period of Elul.
Rabbeinu Yonah, at the end of his Sefer
Hayirah, explains it a little differently. He quotes the posuk in Koheles
(3:1) which states, “Lakol zemon ve’eis lechol cheifetz tachas hashomoyim
- Everything has its appointed season, a time for every matter under the
heavens.”
The Jew lives with ittim, the times of
the year. Just as during the joyful period of Purim we increase simcha
and mishteh, and during the sad period of Av we are mournful, from
the beginning of Elul until the end of Yom Kippur a person should
be chareid, fearful, of the awesome judgment he faces. That is the call
of the season.
Chazal teach
that every soul will face questions on the Day of Judgment, after 120 years.
One of them is, “Kavata ittim laTorah?” Literally, the question is
whether the person set aside special times for learning Torah during his
life.
The Sefas Emes understood the question
differently. He says that the Heavenly tribunal will ask us: Kavata ittim?
Did you establish the ittim, the various time-periods listed in the posuk
in Koheles – a time to be glad and a time to be sad, a time to mourn and
a time to dance, a time to do battle and a time to make peace, a time to love
and a time to hate?
Each emotion and action is preceded by the word
“eis”: Eis le’ehov ve’eis lisno, eis milchamah ve’eis shalom… The
Sefas Emes explains that the word eis teaches that our behavior
in each situation must be dictated by the Torah. A person will be asked if he
danced when the Torah said to dance and if he cried when the Torah said to cry.
“Kavata ittim laTorah” refers to the way you conducted yourself in every
eis described by the posuk and whether it was in accordance with
the precepts of the Torah.
As the Ohr Hachaim and others teach
about last week’s parsha of Ki Seitzei lamilchamah al oyvecha,
while the Torah refers to the Jewish people going to battle against their
enemies, it also serves as a lesson and guide to us how to battle our eternal
enemy, the yeitzer hora.
It is a serious battle, the most serious of all
battles we face. Life is too short and too serious to ignore the opportunities
we have for change and growth. Teshuvah is too precious a gift to be
ignored as we struggle to make a living, run carpools, meet deadlines, go to
simchos, travel for business or pleasure, and run to shiurim or
events. We must all take a break to think.
Even in our day, when the attention span of
people has shrunk to an infinitesimal fraction of a second and superficiality
is the mode of thought and conduct, we must preserve the ability to rise above
the shallowness and engage in serious thought and introspection.
Rabbeinu Yonah begins his classic sefer,
Shaarei Teshuvah, by referring to teshuvah as “min hatovos,”
a supreme gift from Hashem. Just as we thank Hashem for the many favors He
bestows upon us, such as good health, happiness, nachas and sustenance,
so must we gratefully thank Him for providing us with the curing gift of
teshuvah.
Rav Boruch Ber Leibowitz was vigilant in the mitzvah
of kibbud av vo’eim, going to extremes to care for his parents. During
the First World War, his father joined him as they were exiled. The refugee
experience took its toll, and upon their return, his father took ill. Rav
Boruch Ber sat at his father’s bedside day and night, engaging him in
conversation and encouraging him to carry on.
Rav Boruch Ber’s talmidim noticed that
this was taking a toll on their rebbi and they began to worry about his
own health. They managed to convince their rebbi that it would not
impact his father’s health if he would leave for a couple of hours at night and
get some bed rest. They would take turns spending the night there and ensuring
that all Rav Leibowitz’s needs were taken care of.
In time, the rosh yeshiva’s father was niftar.
Rav Boruch Ber was consumed by guilt that he didn’t constantly remain at
his father’s side. He felt that allowing talmidim to replace him at the
bedside for a few hours at night was a mistake and that he had failed in his mitzvah
of kibbud av. He became distraught and met the Chofetz Chaim to
discuss with him what he should do.
The Chofetz Chaim did not attempt to
assuage his feelings of guilt and tell him that he did as much as was
physically possible and was not deficient in his obligation to his father.
Instead, he discussed with him the topic of teshuvah. He said, “There is
a marvelous creation called teshuvah. Even if a person sins, the path of
teshuvah is always available to him. When a person engages in this
process, not only does it cleanse him of his sin, but once a person has done teshuvah,
he becomes a new man.
“You have done teshuvah for not being
there. You are not the same person now as you were when you left him. You are a
new person, with a new metzius. The person who did that aveirah
is not you. There is no reason to be distraught.”
Rav Boruch Ber left the room with the heavy
load clearly lifted from his shoulders. He said, “I am a new person. The past
is gone. The Chofetz Chaim brought me back to life.”
Teshuvah grants
us rebirth and a new life. The old mistakes cease to hold us back.
In line with the explanation of the Akeidah,
we can appreciate this idea. People return from vacation revitalized and
restored, glowing with good health. They feel like new people.
Elul is a
like a vacation. It restores our life and vitality. When we emerge from Elul
and Tishrei, we can exude spiritual health and vigor and actually be
entirely new people in every sense of the word.
Just because we did something wrong yesterday
does not mean that we are doomed for life. An ehrliche Yid should never
feel that he is in a rut. Aveiros get you down, but teshuvah
lifts you up and reJewvenates you.
We all echo the request of Dovid Hamelech in
his ode to teshuvah: Lev tahor bera li Elokim, grant me a pure heart,
veruach nachon chadeish bekirbi, and grant me a new spirit.
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