Wings of Angels
Mountains are central to our history. The first mountain we encounter is Har Hamoriah, where Avrohom Avinu approached to bring his son Yitzchok as a korban.
On that mountain, malochim
appeared to Avrohom and Yitzchok. On that mountain, Yaakov Avinu experienced kedusha
and received tremendous brachos. On that mountain, the Bais Hamikdosh
was built.
The mountain that hosted so much
holiness also experienced great tragedy. Though it witnessed immense kedusha,
during the time of the churban its holiness was defiled and tumah
found a resting place there. We anxiously await the day when the Shechinah
will once again return there together with the Bais Hamikdosh Hashlishi.
The Torah also speaks about Har
Gerizim and Har Eivol, the mountains near Shechem. Upon one, eternal brachos
were proclaimed. Upon the other, eternal curses were declared for those who do
not follow the Torah. The mountain of blessings was lush and green, while the
other remained barren and desolate. They remain that way until today.
In Nach, we read about the
mountain upon which Eliyohu Hanovi confronted the false prophets of the avodah
zorah known as Baal.
But of all the mountains, the one
most central to who we are is Har Sinai. Though physically small, it towers
over the entire landscape of Jewish history. On Shavuos, we picture
millions of Yidden encamped around it, overwhelmed with tangible awe.
They had traveled for forty-five days, following Moshe Rabbeinu through a hot
and dusty desert in order to reach it.
Their journey had truly begun at brias
ha’olam, when the world itself was created. The nation was moving toward
its ultimate destiny. Bereishis, Chazal teach us, bishvil
haTorah shenikreis reishis - the world was created so that the Torah could
eventually be given to the Jewish people.
There was thunder and lightning.
The sound of the shofar echoed powerfully, growing louder and louder.
Smoke rose from the mountain, which stood beneath a thick cloud. The Divine
Voice reverberated throughout creation, shaking the foundations of the earth.
The Bnei Yisroel trembled with fear as they watched their leader ascend
the mountain and disappear into the arofel, the thick fog.
On Shavuos, as we revisit
the story of Moshe Rabbeinu ascending Har Sinai, we are reminded that the road
to the highest levels of kedusha is rarely smooth or clear. More often,
it passes through fog, smoke, and uncertainty. The Torah tells us, “Vayavo
Moshe besoch he’anan,” and later, “Moshe nigash el ha’arofel asher shom
ha’Elokim.” Moshe entered the cloud and approached the dense darkness where
Hashem’s Presence rested. Moshe Rabbeinu did not receive the Torah beneath calm
and peaceful skies. It came amid thunder, lightning, smoke, and heavy fog.
Perhaps that itself was part of
the lesson.
A person may think that drawing
closer to Hashem always comes with clarity, serenity, and immediate
inspiration. But the Torah teaches otherwise. Very often, before reaching
greater light, a person must first pass through confusion. Before attaining
deeper holiness, he encounters resistance, distraction, and what Chazal
call tishtush hamochin, a fogging of the mind and spirit.
Wherever there is kedusha,
there is tumah attempting to oppose it. The greater the potential for
holiness, the stronger the forces that seek to obstruct and contaminate it. To
demonstrate this, at the very moment the world was about to become forever
elevated through Kabbolas HaTorah, Har Sinai was surrounded by arofel,
darkness, and smoke.
That pattern has repeated itself
throughout history.
Whenever Yidden sought to
build Torah, strengthen themselves spiritually, or establish places of purity
and growth, opposition inevitably arose. Sometimes the resistance came from
external persecution and hardship. At other times, it emerged internally,
through confusion, cynicism, temptation, or spiritual exhaustion. The greater
and stronger the structure of kedusha becomes, the more aggressively tumah
attempts to seep through the cracks and poison it.
Yet, those who seek taharah
do not become lost in the fog or frightened by it. They understand that it is
part of the process. Moshe Rabbeinu moved forward into the arofel
because he knew that beyond it rested the Shechinah itself.
The challenge facing those who
strive for greatness in Torah and avodas Hashem is to continue advancing
even when clarity fades. To keep learning, davening, building, and
striving despite the noise, confusion, and distractions swirling around them.
The yeitzer hora tries to convince a person that if he feels uninspired,
overwhelmed, or spiritually blocked, he should retreat. But the lesson of Har
Sinai teaches the exact opposite. Sometimes, the greatest growth occurs
precisely when one pushes through the fog rather than surrendering to it.
This is the foundation of the nisyonos
involving emunah and bitachon. It is easy to believe when
everything is clear. But we must also recognize the Hand of Hashem when it is
hidden, when life becomes difficult and events do not unfold the way we hoped.
Throughout the generations, our
forefathers understood this truth. They knew that there are periods of darkness
and hester, and that the path to kedusha, survival, and a blessed
Yiddishe life is not by avoiding struggle, but by refusing to allow
struggle to define or stop us.
That message is especially
relevant in our generation, when distractions are endless and confusion is
everywhere, when moral boundaries become blurred and spiritual fog surrounds
us. We live in an age of superficiality, shortened attention spans, and short
memories. It is easy to lose clarity regarding who we are and what we are meant
to strive for. This is the modern form of arofel.
We must continue pushing our way
through the fog, recognizing that if we persevere - if we maintain our sense of
kedusha and Torah values - we can continue climbing until we reach the
place we seek, “asher shom ha’Elokim,” the place beyond the darkness
where Hashem resides.
The Brisker Rov was the mesader
kiddushin at a wedding. Standing under the chupah, it came time for
the chosson to place the ring on the kallah’s finger and declare
her his wife. As the young man attempted to put the ring on her finger, he
became so nervous that he began shaking and dropped the ring.
His father bent down, picked up
the ring from the floor, and handed it back to the chosson. Once again,
the chosson’s hand trembled, and as he tried to place the ring on his kallah’s
finger, it slipped and fell to the ground. His father picked it up and returned
it to him.
The nervous chosson made a
third attempt to place the ring on the girl’s finger. Once again, the seemingly
simple task escaped him and the ring dropped to the floor. This time, people
began murmuring. Someone turned to the rov and remarked, “This seems
like a sign that they should not be getting married. Perhaps their match is
simply not bashert.”
The rov shook his head.
“No, no,” he replied. “This is a sign that the couple was meant to marry now
and not three minutes earlier.”
Upon hearing those words, the
young man relaxed. His father handed him the ring once more, he placed it on
the kallah’s finger, and declared, “Harei at mekudeshes li… kedas
Moshe v’Yisroel.”
The study of Torah is difficult,
and many times, while learning, we feel as though we are trapped in arofel,
lost in a fog of confusion. We cannot follow the back-and-forth of the Gemara
or understand the kushya or teretz of Tosafos. We convince
ourselves that the sugya is beyond our ability to comprehend. We feel
tempted to close the Gemara and find something easier to occupy
ourselves with.
But we must remember that this is
the way of the Torah. It does not come easily. Nevertheless, we immerse
ourselves in it, and after much toil, we slowly begin to understand and
appreciate its beauty and brilliance.
Rav Shmuel Auerbach related a
story that he heard from a direct witness, ish mipi ish. One of the holy
tzaddikim of Yerushalayim possessed a kemei’a that he would lend
to people in need of a yeshuah. The Kabbalistic parchment had been
written by the Taz, author of the Turei Zohov on Shulchan
Aruch. The kemei’a was known to be exceptionally powerful, and many
who used it saw their problems resolved.
The owner of the kemei’a
was extremely curious about what was written on the concealed parchment that
possessed such extraordinary power. Although opening an amulet generally causes
it to lose its effectiveness, he reasoned that perhaps he could copy the secret
names of Hashem and the malochim written on it onto a new parchment and
preserve its power to help those in desperate need.
When he carefully opened the
ancient sacred document, he was astonished to discover that it did not contain
holy names or the names of ministering angels. Instead, in the handwriting of
the Taz, there was only a single sentence: “Dear Creator of the world,
in the merit of my deep toil to understand the words of Tosafos in Chullin
on daf 96, please bring salvation and blessings to the person wearing
this amulet.”
That is the power of Torah. This
is the reward for laboring to understand the words of a Tosafos.
The Torah grants life to those
who struggle through the arofel in order to understand and absorb its
holy words and messages. The strength it gives its faithful adherents is
eternal. But to attain a true understanding of Torah, we must possess patience,
discipline, and wisdom. We must never give up or surrender.
The first Jews who received the
Torah had their own arofel: the slavery of Mitzrayim and the descent
into the deepest levels of tumah. Their faith sustained them as they
followed Moshe Rabbeinu out of the country and through the Yam Suf. Within
forty-nine days, they prepared themselves to receive the Torah at Har Sinai.
They fought their way through the fog of Mitzrayim’s tumah and elevated
themselves to the highest levels attainable by man.
On Shavuos, we read Megillas
Rus, the story of Na’ami and her daughter-in-law, Rus. Two courageous women
survived tremendous tragedy and rose above their personal arofel to
become the ancestors of Dovid Hamelech and ultimately Moshiach. Rus
HaMoaviah rose above the depravity of her homeland and became a devoted giyores.
Nothing deterred her from remaining loyal to Torah and the Jewish people. She
endured poverty and loneliness while pursuing the path she had chosen. In
return, she merited royal descendants and eternal blessings. We continue to
await the arrival of her descendant, the ultimate redeemer.
Rus had every reason to return to
Moav and to the wealth she had left behind when she married into the family of
Elimelech, yet she so eloquently bound her destiny to the Jewish people. Her
story inspires us to persevere during difficult times. It is yet another
reminder that those who follow the path of Hashem and cling to Torah and mitzvos
with determination will ultimately flourish and succeed.
Rather than retreating, she moved
forward. Instead of surrendering to what appeared to be overwhelming obstacles,
she demonstrated that commitment to Torah is always preferable to any
alternative. We, too, must never give up, no matter what difficulties we
encounter in the observance or study of Torah.
When Hashem appeared to the Bnei
Yisroel and offered them the Torah, they responded in unison, “Na’aseh
venishma - We will do and we will hear whatever You tell us.” Their
response was so praiseworthy that the Gemara in Maseches Shabbos
(88a) relates that afterward, malochim placed two crowns upon the head
of every Jew, one for na’aseh and one for nishma. A bas kol
rang out proclaiming, “Who taught My children this secret?”
Many ask what was so
extraordinary about na’aseh venishma that it elicited such a dramatic
response. Perhaps we can explain that by responding in this manner, they were
declaring: “Na’aseh - we will live according to the dictates of the
Torah and follow its commandments. Venishma - and we will accomplish
this through dedicating ourselves to the study of Torah. No difficulty will
stop us from working as hard as we can to understand the words of the Torah. We
will not become lost or deterred in the arofel.”
Na’aseh venishma. We have
been repeating that pledge for thousands of years. Wherever we are, whatever
language we speak, regardless of our geographical distance from major Jewish
centers, despite the ravages of exile, golus, churban, and
pogroms, we continue proclaiming together, “Na’aseh venishma.”
Those words are what distinguish
us and what have sustained us throughout the ages. We have been protected by
the Torah and by our loyalty to it and to what it demands of us. The other
nations that once filled the world have disappeared throughout history. We
remain because of those two words that guide and define us.
On the Yom Tov of Kabbolas
HaTorah, we once again stand at Har Sinai and proclaim, “Na’aseh
venishma.” We receive the Torah anew and are reminded of our mission and
purpose. Shavuos is not merely a commemoration of what our ancestors
accepted long ago, but a renewal of our own commitment to live as people shaped
and elevated by Torah, today and every day.
My uncle, Rav Avrohom Chaim
Levin, rosh yeshiva of Yeshivas Telz, once recalled a difficult period
in the yeshiva when an incident had deeply shaken the rosh yeshiva,
Rav Elya Meir Bloch. The atmosphere in the bais medrash was tense as the
talmidim gathered to hear the rosh yeshiva speak. They expected a
fiery rebuke, a painful description of how low a person can fall. As they
entered and took their seats for the shmuess, they feared what he would
say.
But Rav Elya Meir spoke about
something entirely different.
“We already know how low a person
can sink,” he said. “Now let us speak about how high a person can rise.”
And with the classic mussar
emphasis on gadlus ha’adam, he delivered a shmuess about
possibility, about the greatness contained within every Jew, and the heights
each person can attain.
The great mashgiach, Rav
Yechezkel Levenstein, would say that while it is a serious failing for a person
not to recognize his deficiencies, it is an even greater failing not to
recognize his strengths and qualities. A person who ignores his weaknesses
cannot improve himself, but a person who ignores his greatness cannot even
begin the journey upward.
Perhaps this is one of the
central messages of Shavuos as well.
The Torah was not given to malochim.
It was given to human beings who struggle, fail, become discouraged, and
sometimes lose clarity. Yet, Hashem looked at those very human beings and
entrusted them with His Torah because of what they are capable of becoming.
The yeitzer hora wants a
person to focus obsessively on his weaknesses and failures, convincing him that
holiness and greatness belong only to others. But the yeitzer tov
reminds us that the opposite is true.
The fire of Har Sinai burns
within the heart of every Jew.
The fire of Torah possesses the
power to illuminate the neshomah and burn away the tumah that
seeks to envelop it. Even during periods of arofel and choshech,
confusion and spiritual exhaustion, every Yid possesses the strength to
continue moving forward, to walk through darkness with purpose, and to strive
upward as a kadosh reaching toward Heaven.
So often in life, there is a
temptation to surrender, to convince ourselves that the burdens are too heavy,
the distractions are too powerful, and the challenges are too overwhelming. A
person may feel that he has stumbled too many times to ever rise again.
But the nation that declared “Na’aseh
venishma” is not a nation that gives up.
The very essence of those words
was the willingness to continue forward despite uncertainty, despite
difficulty, despite not fully understanding what lay ahead. At Har Sinai, Klal
Yisroel demonstrated that it understood that greatness is achieved by
accepting the challenge of growth.
Every Shavuos, as we once
again accept the Torah, we are reminded not only of our obligations, but also
of our greatness. We remember that we were created for more than mediocrity and
distraction. We were created to rise, to horeveh in Torah, to grow, and
to become a great nation of great people.
For those who carry the words “Na’aseh
venishma” within their souls, no challenge is insurmountable and no height
is beyond reach.
We speak about greatness,
holiness, and climbing toward Heaven. We speak about the crowns that were
placed upon our heads at Har Sinai, about walking through the arofel,
about becoming anshei kodesh while living in a difficult physical world
filled with challenges. But all of this can sound lofty and distant, as though
true greatness belongs only to malochim and not to ordinary people like
us.
The Torah teaches otherwise.
There was once a great commotion
in the town of Sadigura. Rav Yisroel of Ruzhin had come to visit, and crowds
gathered to catch a glimpse of the great tzaddik and perhaps receive a brocha.
A young child heard the excitement and asked what it was about.
“A rebbe as holy as a malach
has come to town,” they told him. “The heilige Ruzhiner is here.”
Curious and sincere, the child
pushed his way through the crowd until he stood before the rebbe. He
carefully walked around him, studying him from every angle.
The rebbe noticed and
asked the boy what he was looking for. “I was told that the rebbe is a malach,
and my cheder rebbi taught us that in Akdamus it says that malochim
have six wings. I am looking for your wings.”
The rebbe looked down at
the cherubic young boy and smiled. Pointing to the six sons accompanying him,
he said, “These are my six wings.”
The Torah does not ask us to
escape our humanity and become malochim. It asks us to elevate our
humanity. True greatness is not found in withdrawing from life, but in
sanctifying it. The wings that lift a Jew Heavenward are not hidden somewhere
beyond this world. They are built here - through raising children, building families,
learning Torah, refining our character, helping others, persevering through
struggle, and remaining loyal to Hashem and His Torah.
Moshe Rabbeinu entered the arofel
not to stop being human, but to demonstrate that a human being can ascend far
beyond what he imagined possible. Klal Yisroel stood at Har Sinai and
affirmed that ordinary people of flesh and blood could live lives infused with kedusha
and eternal meaning.
And every year on Shavuos,
we stand there once again, hearing the call to greatness and reminding
ourselves that despite the darkness of the times, despite the distractions of
life, our weaknesses, and our struggles, we are the people to whom Hashem spoke
at Har Sinai, and we are the people to whom He gave the Torah. That upward path
still exists.
We are not malochim. But
we possess the wings that can carry us as high as we wish to go.
Let’s go.
Ashreichem Yisroel.
Gut Yom Tov.
